just got back from the hospital yesterday. once i found out that i was unable to go into the program due to lack of money and insurance crap i just was ready to leave. i can’t sit there and vegitate. i have to be working on something or i get really agitated.
talked a bit about the sexual abuse while there. i gave a vague idea of what happened and such. they tried to convince me that i was not at fault and that i had been betrayed by him. i understand that intellectually but am unable to process it emotionally, i just am not ready for that. i would have to say that he hurt me and that would bring up the question of why. why would he hurt me like that?
too much for me right now. it was my fault, i must have done something. it had to have been my fault. they said that i was (insert some stupid psych term here), basically meaning that i was delusional. they said i wasn’t even old enough to go to school, much less act sexually alluring. didn’t know how to answer that.
