i’ve been very testy lately. a lot of things have been frustrating me. i just don’t have time for much anymore. i used to have all the time in the world and now that has shrank into having only time on certain days and at certain hours. it’s both good and bad. good that i don’t have the time for the angst. i mean, i don’t really have time to think about cutting when i’m helping customers or cleaning everything. i just don’t.
a lot of the people i work with help me in a way. that scares me. i’ve come to depend on them for helping me get through the working day. the day nobody was there to talk to me i started feeling suicidal and halfway decided to burn myself. it would look like a total accident. i didn’t but that didn’t mean the urge wasn’t there.
i’m reading over what i just wrote and i think it sounds terrible. it doesn’t flow. i’ve lost it.
keep moving forward. step by step. my god, your talents are so beautiful. keep expressing yourself. a moment at a time (found you via self-injury.net)
peace. keep up the ex-pression. ex-PRESS-out the pain.
j
Your have a wonderful writing sytle. I wonder if you realize how many people your words have touched. My best wishes to you. I have a good friend who is cutting and I don’t know what to do…
i agree with Azure. you should write more. i’ll be sure to check back here. and hang in there, you’re not losing it, you just need to figure yourself out.
your site is just wonderful and you’re an excellent writer. i’m starting a literary/art ezine (for only the best!) so if you’d like to submit something or want more info send me an email. cheers!
also, if you’d ever like to talk about what you’re going through, i’ve been there myself. its tough, but you’ll pull through.