i hate headaches. doesn’t everyone, though. still just puttering about my house except on weekends. i did watch munich, though. it was all right. sort of longish but decent. it was the second attempt to watch it. the last time you couldn’t hear the people speaking and this time there was some of the same problem (though less pronounced) until about a third through the movie. that’s my theater for you!
it seems i’m going to transfer (well, keep one class at my current university) to a jc to get the rad tech degree and then head back to my current place to do the nuc med program. ever since it went to that school for ‘smart’ (hah!) people the fear of jc’s has been instilled in me. it was university or death. they’d even resort to announcing what school you’d been accepted into in the morning announcements over the loudspeaker. i’m glad i dropped out in tenth grade (started in seventh) and went to a normal high school.
i have absolutely no motivation. that’s basically the reason i couldn’t find anything else to interest me. i just don’t feel i can do anything or be of any use to anyone. part of that comes from how i used to be treated as if i’d die any second. or that i was incompetent and unable to take care of myself. i have to give up my ‘rights’ and put myself as a dependent of my parents. it’s just plain sad so, well, i’m going to do the radiology tech program and try to become my own person. fuck what my old snobbish school used to say about jc’s.
i just wish i could have the drive to do something i really wanted. writing would be nice. after i learned grammar, that is.
while id like to see an update of some scripts, i think id like to see more poetry even more.
the ocean poem reminded me of myself so much that it brought me to tears.. except I am not that me anymore and I wish you the best of luck in being able to say the same thing some day.
i hope it will be able to say the same, too. good that you got out of it. (: i’m glad you liked the poem.
i’ve not written much poetry lately. just a short story that actually features a male. interesting because i don’t write too many original male characters.