spend more time in public places. it makes things a bit easier when there’s nobody home. i just really need to be able to move beyond this being unable to go anywhere without company (work or school is the exception).
i’ve fallen in love with raymond carver’s short stories. they are just amazing. not very wordy or flowery but very powerful. i didn’t much like ‘lady with a pet dog’ (by another author), though. we were talking in class about making a living by being a writer and how its nearly impossible. my professor was talking about a friend of hers who made some money by writing stories about a television series. she was like, ‘what’s it called? fanfiction?’ i started laughing because i write fanfiction but certainly do not make a dime off of it. imagine being paid for it. i’m sure it would be more limiting, though. would have to stick to more approved topics. at least for certain series.
i want to send some of my work out. i’ve not been inspired much lately except for a longish poem about a woman in a past time period (guess, late 1800s). a teacher in high school told the class women used to give laudanum to their children to quiet them while they were at work. i’ve never been able to forget that. it just really struck me. i wrote something starting off with that and just living in that sort of life.
i really, really hate writing iambic pentameter. i go around basically singing the lines to myself to see if it flows. da-DUM-da-DUM-da-DUM-da-DUM-da-DUM. then i can’t stop thinking in iambic pentameter. it’s good practice, though.
