i’m going back to school today and i’m a bit intimidated by the fact. i was out of school for about five or so months due to the medical leave of absence. i’m going to be applying for a new school for the spring semester. i love creative writing, i really do. i just know i won’t really be able to do much with it. i need to move on and finally try for a career i can do.
there’s been a heat wave the past several days. thank god for air conditioning. the news says it’s going to be cooling down over the next few days. i went to the mall and it was like it was christmas, there were so many people.
good news. i haven’t self-injured in about five months. that’s just about the longest i’ve gone without. i rarely think about it and i’ve only once seriously considered self-injuring in that timeframe. i worry that the medication might stop working but, so far, it’s been great. i have felt like i don’t want to live anymore but i don’t take it seriously. that was more out of frustration with my life than anything.
i’m reading the things they carried by tim o’brien. i’m enjoying it so far. it feels more than just a collection of short stories on the vietnam war and i was surprised to find that there is humor. the characters are memorable in that they are all flawed and that they are more than just stereotypes. i’ve never really read war-based fiction and i’m glad that i read this book first.
Grettings from Poland
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You are brave. What you write matters – and not just to people who understand what you’ve gone through because they’ve experienced similar events and feelings themselves. I happened to stumble upon your site and haven’t stopped reading. Thank you, and know that people you may never meet are hoping good things come to you.
I found this site just a moment ago, and was just starting to look around when I found this journal. I wanted to tell you that I am both a diehard Radiohead fan and a former self-injurer.
I wish you luck with your struggles. If it your desire to know how I ended my path of self destruction, you can email me at liquid_gaze@msn.com.
Agnieszka – Thank you. I’m good now and haven’t been in a hospital in months.
bluestarrgurl – Thank you, that’s quite a compliment.
Natsuko – Thank you. I’ve e-mailed you about your story of how you stopped your self-destruction.