It’s funny. I spent most of last summer half in love with a friend of mine and a few days ago he approaches me with a question. One that shook me up. I don’t regret completely cutting off those feelings for him or making myself see him as only a friend. I just didn’t know how to respond because I used to be infatuated with him and couldn’t just brush him off as I’ve done with other men. I didn’t say, ‘No, been there, done that,’ but I couldn’t say yes, as tempting as it was. I don’t trust myself with a no strings attached relationship, especially with somebody I had deeper feelings for.
I’ve been thinking on expanding what I call the semi-incestuous story. I turned it in for workshopping but I wonder if it needs more of an ending, a high point to what really isn’t action filled. It was orginally a piece of fanfiction until I realized even though some details were right the characters were nothing like their counterparts in the original work. I did rewrite the last scene almost completely, added more clarification and small scenes, and did some edits. It feels incomplete, though. I just don’t know what to do with it or if I should just dump it in an unused folder on my computer and forget about it after it’s workshopped. The details and interactions feel right, the plot – or lack of it – don’t.
Forgetting about old writing is almost a hobby of mine. I put the writing away, come across it months or years later, and marvel at how terrible it is. I rarely find it within me to take a fresh approach to it. I think that’s a bad sign.
That would be a difficult situation, I can’t imagine how I would feel. I am sure whatever happens you will decide the right thing for yourself. Good luck with the writing as well!
Kya’s last blog post..A happy kind of day
No-strings attached relationships are always rather difficult and hard to deal with.
I’m very similar with writing. On top of working on whatever novel I’m writing, I’m always doing side stuff – side stuff that ends up being shuffled away. Whenever I find the said piece, I feel it’s retched and not worthwhile.
Oh, the woes of writing insecurity.
Kya – I decided no. That is best and now the friendship I have with this person seems the same so it wasn’t very serious on his part. Thank you. <3
Heather – They are from what I’ve heard. I’ve never wanted to engage in one before this, just not my thing.
I think a lot of us have writing insecurity. *g* The story got good feedback during workshop and another writer gave me some very good advice. Once I can find writing time I’ll pick up on it again because I do have to revise one or both of my stories for class.
I’ve never had the drive to write a novel. I find it admirable that anybody can write for dozens and dozens of pages and more.