It’s nearly 2009 and I feel so much and so little has happened this year.
This is the first year I was not hospitalized since before I turned fifteen. I never even came close to it despite one slight downturn over the summer. So slight I nearly forgot to mention it to the doctor. I’m back to seeing him every three months instead of every month.
It’s funny. It’s not through my own doing that I’m well or not well. It’s just medication, nothing more, nothing less. I’ve accepted it’s a chemical imbalance and not something I can force myself out of. Not that I’m helpless. I just don’t know how to word it. Responsible for my behavior but unable to stop the feelings that motivate that behavior is the closest I can come to it.
This is also the year where I end my career at my current school. I’m planning on further schooling but in a field not related to my major (Creative Writing). I love to write but I don’t feel I have the drive or desire to make myself write every day. It would become a chore and I also don’t think I’d make much money as a short story writer and poet.
My cumulative GPA is 3.455. Not fantastically high but not the 3.2-something of two or three years ago. I looked over my grades and I did terribly in the more science/psychology-oriented classes which is funny considering I used to be a psychology major. I hate statistics.
Well, a happy new year to you all! I hope your year has been as good (at least, decent) as mine has been.
Statistics isn’t my forte either.. I prefer algebra over that anytime! Haha. At least your grades are improving. Good for you! Good to know also that you didn’t get confined this year.
Advance happy new year!
Gel’s last blog post..ready for 2009… i think.
Thank you! Hope your upcoming year is good. *g* Statistics is an evil, evil class. So boring and it had a lab. I hate labs where you really do nothing fun.
I read your autobiography and I recognize myself in what you write. I’ve also had a lot of mental problems. I still have but just like you I take medicine which helps me a lot. Not entierly, but a lot. You appear to have come further than me when it comes to recovering and I envy you for that. Feel proud of yourself. It’s hard to overcome mental problems.
Angelica’s last blog post..My christmas presents
Thank you.
It’s been a long journey and for years it looked like I would probably be dead or sent to long term treatment. You can get there, too, it’s not impossible. I’m lucky in that I found the right medication and have kept myself taking it faithfully. No screwing around like I did for years. Good luck. <3
wow congrats. I am happy for you that youve been better physically.
Goodluck! May you have an even better year!
Ivy’s last blog post..BUMmer
Thank you! I hope the next year is good, too.
Happy New too! hope your 2009 will be good. I havent been hospitalized since I was a kid.. haha!
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Yes, it’s amazing what a little ‘illness’ will do to you.
Best wishes for the upcoming year.
Happy new year! Hope 2009s even better than the last for you.
Have you decided which field yet?
Regina’s last blog post..A List, Because I Am Lazy
I’m thinking of IT, perhaps not web design but more on the programming end. Still am mulling it over and am planning on seeing what is available in my area.
Hope the upcoming year is a good one for you!
I love your website!
Anyways, happy new year to you, too! Any idea what you want to study yet? 
Dizzy’s last blog post..Hilarious
Thanks.
I’m pretty sure I’d love to do something related to programming or web design. Something in IT.