In people’s eyes, in the swing, tramp, and trudge; in the bellow and the uproar; the carriages, motor cars, omnibuses, vans, sandwich men shuffling and swinging; brass bands; barrel organs; in the triumph and the jungle and the strange high singing of some aeroplane overhead was what she loved; life; London; this moment of June.
- Mrs Dalloway, Virginia Woolf
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This is what I felt tonight. This moment of December. Alive and happy to be alive. The past few days were tough and had some downs but tonight at the coffee house with my cousin and my brother I felt a connection with them I haven’t felt with other people in a long time. I’m fine with telling people personal things but I rarely feel anything when telling it, rarely want the other person to understand how it made me feel. It’s usually told as a funny story, as a joke. My life, the joke. I told them about the one thing that somebody said to me that haunts me to this day. I don’t think I’ve told anybody but my mom that except for on the Internet because there’s a wall (screen?) between me and people on the Internet.
The coffee house itself was gorgeous. A converted house with a garden, fire pit, patio, pond. I want to go back.
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Christmas was lovely, at least in some parts. The family parts were overwhelming but I made tamales de azucar with my cousin and they were delicious. I didn’t get too many presents but I appreciate what was given me.
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I’ve moved all my photomanipulations and amateur photography to this main site/blog instead of a separate site.
Good to know that you had a meaningful Christmas time, Gabrielle
Sadly, Christmas was an “okay” day for me, it was just spent like any ordinary day. However, it’s people like you who inspire me to go on with life and still make the most out of it despite its downsides… and I thank you for that.
Advance happy new year!
You’re welcome. I’m glad that I can be an inspiration even with all my many imperfections.
Not everybody has a major Christmas. Not every year has been like this for my family. Any day where you feel close to people, be they friends, family, a significant other, and feel good being there with these people is good. It doesn’t have to be a holiday like Christmas where you’re told you should feel like this.
An advanced happy new year to you!