i don't know what to talk about or maybe i do but i'm not sure what to say. a girl (who unregistered shortly before) killed herself and it really shook me up. what could i have done? i was just so fucking tired that week and i tried but there was not much else i could do. i did my best. i learned she tried to leave $20,000 to sh in her suicide note. that really threw me for a loop, too. her son,  can't forget the four-year-old without his mother. that just really tears at my heart. i thought i didn't have one anymore. i don't know what to say. this world amazes me. in both good and bad ways.

i've not been inspired much in terms of poetry. the hitler love poem was a success, i think. it was the first poem i'd written that i'd liked. strangely enough, someone found this site by looking for 'loving hitler poem' or something to that effect.