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2009
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let us do something, while we have the chance!

I know this is late but I’ve been mulling over my plans for the upcoming year. Now that going to school for my bachelors has come to a close I have lost some of my direction.

What I want to accomplish over the next twelve months

  1. Go today or tomorrow to talk about delaying commencement until May.
  2. Go back to school for something related to IT, looking into programming. I’ve been self-taught so far but I think I’m in desperate need of some sort of formal training. I want to be back in school by Fall semester.
  3. Finish the revamp/complete rewrite of backend scripts on my non-personal website.
  4. Rewrite myFanlisting CMS and move fanlistings over to sleepwalking.nu.
  5. Buy a new computer. The one I have is over two years old and moves at a crawl. Using MSN Messenger can cause it to freeze up. I was thinking of a Mac but decided it was too expensive. I don’t have that sort of money lying around!
  6. Lose weight healthily. I need to start walking/jogging again, that helped me lose nearly ten pounds over the summer. I gained it back after I stopped.

I’ve been thinking about regrets and I have few, I feel wasting time regretting things holds people back. I do have one related to losing a friend I’d had since high school. Now we’re nearly strangers. It’s something I think about from time to time, I can’t quite let go of it like I’ve let go of everything else.

Commented: Gel Dizzy Gabrielle Angelica

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2008
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head and heart are contrary historians

It’s nearly 2009 and I feel so much and so little has happened this year.

This is the first year I was not hospitalized since before I turned fifteen. I never even came close to it despite one slight downturn over the summer. So slight I nearly forgot to mention it to the doctor. I’m back to seeing him every three months instead of every month.

It’s funny. It’s not through my own doing that I’m well or not well. It’s just medication, nothing more, nothing less. I’ve accepted it’s a chemical imbalance and not something I can force myself out of. Not that I’m helpless. I just don’t know how to word it. Responsible for my behavior but unable to stop the feelings that motivate that behavior is the closest I can come to it.

This is also the year where I end my career at my current school. I’m planning on further schooling but in a field not related to my major (Creative Writing). I love to write but I don’t feel I have the drive or desire to make myself write every day. It would become a chore and I also don’t think I’d make much money as a short story writer and poet.

My cumulative GPA is 3.455. Not fantastically high but not the 3.2-something of two or three years ago. I looked over my grades and I did terribly in the more science/psychology-oriented classes which is funny considering I used to be a psychology major. I hate statistics.

Well, a happy new year to you all! I hope your year has been as good (at least, decent) as mine has been.

Commented: Gel Angelica Ivy jhoana Regina Gabrielle Dizzy

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