Posts Tagged ‘school’

it should bloody well show

Tuesday, October 12th, 2010

It’s going to be one of the scariest things I’ve done in years, far more than college (which I’m going back to for Spring!) and getting my BA, but I’m going to see if I can do some sort of rehabilitation programs and work. I know that seems really easy but it hasn’t been for me. I need to get out of this house, out of this room, out of this chair. I’ve been stagnant on the job front and pretty much have been since I finished with the pharmacy tech clinicals.

I’ve been mainly working on my main website and there have been a number of changes. I changed my hosting from Wiredtree (excellent host, I do recommend them) to Linode and basically created my own server without CPanel, the usual suspect. It’s been a real learning experience and I’ve worked so much through the command line that I sometimes got sick of it. I’m far from good at it but it’s been fun and it’s been a change.

I’ve also started work on phpFan 4, which has almost all new code aside from the basic functions. There are going to be several new modules and instead of making phpFan and the fanlisting mangagement script separate like I first imagined I’ve been combining them.

On the mental health front I’ve had some setbacks but have always bounced back to a better level of functioning, which to most people would not be saying much but to me it means the world. My sister had a big seizure — not the typical sort, something that I’m only giving that name because I’m not sure of a proper term for it — that lasted two hours. My mom says she was moving so violently she thought her head was going to come off. It’s been an uphill battle towards getting well again for her and she’s had to take leave from school. She’s still not free of the seizure activity. She’s been a real inspiration to me, makes me want to do better with my own health.

floundering, windows 7, programming school and stuff

Monday, November 2nd, 2009

I haven’t had a good week. A relapse and a reemergence of old symptoms. However, I won’t talk much about that.

I managed to upgrade my computer to Windows 7. It was nightmarish and HP told me they wouldn’t support it even though they have upgrade instructions on their website. It was the drivers that were giving me such issue. It took me a couple of days but I downloaded updated drivers and did a few other fixes so now the CPU is not at 90% and I’m connected to the Internet. Heh, hardware and drivers and all that aren’t my strength.

A friend of mine is going to school to become a programmer and it made me envious. Design isn’t my strength but I love working with code. Prior to upgrading to Windows 7 I tweaked a script and got single-sign on working for my IPB forum and Drupal install on a website of mine. I’d waited for months for the script that would do this to be released but I figured I could do it on my own since the developer stopped working on the project. So, maybe, just maybe, I should do the same as my friend. I guess like tons of other people I really don’t know what I want to do. I know I don’t want to be a pharmacy tech for the rest of my life. I know I love working with code. I know I want to learn more about programming.

My license still has not come in and my teacher is MIA. The money for the school was a gift but I still find it upsetting. I know I don’t want to be a pharmacy tech forever but I still want to work part time using my license for a while.