i’m going back to school today and i’m a bit intimidated by the fact. i was out of school for about five or so months due to the medical leave of absence. i’m going to be applying for a new school for the spring semester. i love creative writing, i really do. i just know i won’t really be able to do much with it. i need to move on and finally try for a career i can do.

there’s been a heat wave the past several days. thank god for air conditioning. the news says it’s going to be cooling down over the next few days. i went to the mall and it was like it was christmas, there were so many people.

good news. i haven’t self-injured in about five months. that’s just about the longest i’ve gone without. i rarely think about it and i’ve only once seriously considered self-injuring in that timeframe. i worry that the medication might stop working but, so far, it’s been great. i have felt like i don’t want to live anymore but i don’t take it seriously. that was more out of frustration with my life than anything.

i’m reading the things they carried by tim o’brien. i’m enjoying it so far. it feels more than just a collection of short stories on the vietnam war and i was surprised to find that there is humor. the characters are memorable in that they are all flawed and that they are more than just stereotypes. i’ve never really read war-based fiction and i’m glad that i read this book first.